My Mother, My Hero

  When people ask, who is/was an influential person in life, I typically respond with my mom.  She will always be one of the strongest women I've ever known.  Sadly I only got 16 years with her as her life was cut way too short.  She was diagnosed with breast cancer during my freshman year of high school and passed away right before my junior year.  But I want my mom's legacy to be more than her illness.  That was just one small part of her life.  

  She was so many things to so many people.  She was a wife, a mother, a sister, a daughter, a friend and professionally a cardiac nurse.  I'm sure I got my love for medicine from her.  She was a dedicated, compassionate and brilliant nurse.  She was talking about graduate school before she got sick.  In the last few years of her life, she transferred from patient care to clinical educator.  This meant she taught the new nurses that had just graduated and were starting their careers.  At her viewing, I got the chance to meet a few of her students and it was nice hearing what an impact she made on them.  

  She was a unique person.  She was strong, brave, intelligent, compassionate, loving and nurturing.  She was also tough, bull-headed, stubborn and strong-willed.  She loved classical music but also embarrassing my brother by dancing to his r&b.  She was serious a lot of the time but could easily dry someone's tears with a corny joke.  She knew her stuff when it came to nursing and was a phenomenal caregiver, but she always remained humble.  But she was definitely smart, I could never understand how she was always two steps ahead of me.  I remember one time I snuck out of the house, I probably wasn't even gone 15 minutes and when I got home she was already on the phone with the sheriff's department.  Needless to say, I was grounded for the rest of the summer.  

  My mom taught me so much in the short number of years I had her in my life.  She taught me how to be a good friend.  She taught me a strong work ethic.  Most importantly, she taught me how to depend on myself and be strong.  The only thing she didn't teach me was how to live a life without her.  It felt like a piece of my heart died with her all of those years ago.  

  Life definitely hasn't been easy since she's been gone.  When she first passed, I was lost; we all were.  She was the backbone of our family.  Things just kind of fell apart for a while.  But she also taught me how to adapt to change and overcome hardships.  I can't say that I have gotten over her passing, that's just something you don't really get over.  I miss her and think about her all of the time.  But I have moved on with my life.  She taught me that too.  I know she wouldn't want me to be stuck on her death and I know she would want us all to live our best lives possible.  I try to look at her being gone as more of a "see you again someday" instead of a final "goodbye."  

  I take comfort in knowing that she is with my little girl, taking care of her until I can get there.  My daughter definitely couldn't be in better hands.  
  She influenced so many people, myself included and I know her life shines on through us.







 

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