A Whole Year has Gone by
And just like that, an entire year has gone by since my last post. I think I just got busy, overwhelmed and busy some more. A lot has changed in a year. I got engaged! I've been back to Alaska and I stood up next to one of my best friends at her wedding. I moved into a new house. We adopted another dog. I started a new job. Basically, it's a whole new life.
The engagement has been amazing. In his traditional fashion, my betrothed had to punk me out when he asked for my hand. It was a draining workday but, Valentine's Day nonetheless. I was exhausted. He sat me down and said he had "done something that would affect both of us for the rest of our lives." My heart started racing. You see, when someone is serious with me, I tend to assume the worst. My life hasn't exactly panned out super well up until now. I thought, "well here we go, he's breaking up with me or something just as bad." I was almost in tears guessing what he could possibly be talking about. One of the worst things I could guess he had done I blurted out "DID YOU REENLIST?!" He just laughed and said he thought he was probably too old for that. By the time he was on one knee, I was sweating and almost crying. He pulled out a truly beautiful ring and asked. I cried (happy tears) and of course, said yes.
I'll report more on the other new experiences in separate entries.
It's been a whirlwind of a year and I don't know had things not recently changed with this virus outbreak if I would have come back to this blog. But like most people these days, I find myself with a large amount of free time. Things have been rough for the last couple of months. The winter started and I sunk into a fairly deep depression. I did my best to reach out to the mental health professionals I see, but things remained pretty bleak. As far as the depression has been, it's not been really a sadness but more of feeling extremely "blah" and a significant loss of motivation and energy. I have not done the things I love to do, like crafting for example, much at all. I've let things go in the areas I take pride in. I hardly cooked dinners anymore. I've really been a shell of myself. The last couple of weeks, however, have started to improve. The weather is getting warmer and the sun is starting to come out more. It's truly amazing the dramatic effect this has on my overall mental health.
As far as the outbreak is concerned, I'm somewhat at a loss of what to say. There are so many mixed emotions. At times I feel like things are just simpler lately and I feel like a big weight has been lifted. Other times, like the other night, thinking about all of the unknown, I cried the majority of my drive home from work. Today I said goodbye to my childhood best friend and I couldn't even hug her. That leaves me at a loss for words.
All I can think to do now is pray and take one day at a time. I have hope that someday soon this will all be over. I pray that I can continue my wedding planning. But most of all I pray for our world and what the future holds.
The engagement has been amazing. In his traditional fashion, my betrothed had to punk me out when he asked for my hand. It was a draining workday but, Valentine's Day nonetheless. I was exhausted. He sat me down and said he had "done something that would affect both of us for the rest of our lives." My heart started racing. You see, when someone is serious with me, I tend to assume the worst. My life hasn't exactly panned out super well up until now. I thought, "well here we go, he's breaking up with me or something just as bad." I was almost in tears guessing what he could possibly be talking about. One of the worst things I could guess he had done I blurted out "DID YOU REENLIST?!" He just laughed and said he thought he was probably too old for that. By the time he was on one knee, I was sweating and almost crying. He pulled out a truly beautiful ring and asked. I cried (happy tears) and of course, said yes.
I'll report more on the other new experiences in separate entries.
It's been a whirlwind of a year and I don't know had things not recently changed with this virus outbreak if I would have come back to this blog. But like most people these days, I find myself with a large amount of free time. Things have been rough for the last couple of months. The winter started and I sunk into a fairly deep depression. I did my best to reach out to the mental health professionals I see, but things remained pretty bleak. As far as the depression has been, it's not been really a sadness but more of feeling extremely "blah" and a significant loss of motivation and energy. I have not done the things I love to do, like crafting for example, much at all. I've let things go in the areas I take pride in. I hardly cooked dinners anymore. I've really been a shell of myself. The last couple of weeks, however, have started to improve. The weather is getting warmer and the sun is starting to come out more. It's truly amazing the dramatic effect this has on my overall mental health.
As far as the outbreak is concerned, I'm somewhat at a loss of what to say. There are so many mixed emotions. At times I feel like things are just simpler lately and I feel like a big weight has been lifted. Other times, like the other night, thinking about all of the unknown, I cried the majority of my drive home from work. Today I said goodbye to my childhood best friend and I couldn't even hug her. That leaves me at a loss for words.
All I can think to do now is pray and take one day at a time. I have hope that someday soon this will all be over. I pray that I can continue my wedding planning. But most of all I pray for our world and what the future holds.
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